2 Weeks has passed....

...since Fuzzy left us.

Yesterday was a lot harder than I initially thought it would be. Sure, I knew it would be hard, but I didn't actually realise it would HIT me like it did! :(

The main point was as I was driving home from work, I came around a particular corner. It was the corner I was driving on my way home from work the day I lost Fuzzy, when I absolutely lost it & started screaming "my baby...!!!!"

It was sad. That corner certainly bought up the rawest of memories. :(

We're doing OK I guess. Not really sure what else I can write other than what I have written...

I have another appt at Sharkey's Healing Centre on the 4th of August, so for now, it's just holding out till then.

I have some positive news though! (Trying to remain as positive as I can throughout this whole thing - something good's got to come of that at least... right)?

For about the past 7 years I have had fairly normal day cycles (28 - 32) however, a really short LP. Some people I'd spoken to & research I had done had indicated that a short LP could make it difficult to fall pregnant and given OPK's aren't overly accurate for me (read: can't get them to work at all!) it wasn't making the road travelled very easy, nor fun, for us.

Well, I'm now 14 days in to this 'cycle' following Fuzzy, and I'm pretty certain I'm O'ing now. I've got loads of EWCM (more than I think I ever had when we were actively BD'ing), had the real full on O pangs yesterday afternoon, & headaches galore. Also, another big one is my temps are stabilising around the normal temperature of what they 'should be'. Text book temperatures - around the 35.8 mark.

That may not seem like such a big deal to most, but it is to me - considering I was always pushing to get them above the 34 mark - even around O time!!!

You see progesterone is what keeps your temps spiked, and prog is needed to create and sustain a pregnancy.. along with the HCG of course (the main pregnancy hormone). Therefore, if my temp was always so low perhaps I was never producing enough progesterone to create a pregnancy, let alone sustain one..? Got me thinking now. Positively.

Could this mean my body is finally getting in to line? I think it does!!

If I go by my feelings as I was drifting off to sleep last night, I'm pretty certain I'll have a little 'bun in the oven' come our honeymoon (or before)!

I will always love you Fuzzy - you'll always be my first baby :-) xxx