My letter out to the universe!!

My letter out to the universe, seeking our much anticipated & wished for little BABY of our own :D

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To the Universe,

I am in 2 minds about you.

I don’t understand why, after all of the baby talks between C & I, after all the wishing & praying, after all of the attempts we’d put in over the past WHILE to conceive our baby, when we finally did you took it away from us!!

We are READY for this baby – we are!! WE ARE! WE ARE! WE ARE! :)

We are ready to love, nurture, welcome, and support our new baby in to a happy toddler, then adolescent, then adult, and continue loving & supporting our dear child all the way through life! Our family is ready to become 4!

Anika is ready to become a big sister more than you’d ever believe – it was her that chose the name fuzzy; she was so looking forward to the baby… it broke my heart when I had to tell her what had happened, and then for her to ask when the baby is going to ‘get better’..

You KNEW we’d told Anika, you KNEW we’d told all people close to us, WHY did you have to take him/her away!?? It’s something I’ll never understand. If everything happens for a reason, then what is the reason for us losing Fuzzy????????

We already had our names picked out depending on whether it was a girl or a boy (after all the trying this helped passed the time), we’d decided what pram we were going to get, what room in the house would be the nursery etc. We’d made so many important, baby decisions! Does that not show you how ready we are!???

I’m not angry – I just have questions. Questions that will probably, forever be unanswered. But please, you can put our mind at ease by allowing us our baby we so greatly wish to love & care for...

Please universe, all we hope & pray for is a healthy, full term, safe pregnancy. Is that so much to ask? A honeymoon baby would be ideal.

We are now, and have in the past, put so many different measures in place to show just how ready we are.

I refuse to blame my body for what happened, because after all the time trying, it was my body that finally became pregnant, that actually showed me I [i]can fall pregnant, and for that I am eternally grateful.

Sincerely,

The Family Wishing To Become 4 xxx